So it’s after midnight… And when I can’t sleep, I blog 😉
“… the only thing we have to fear is…fear itself — nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.” – Franklin Roosevelt
This is so true. I realise that a lot of the times when I chose to stay in my comfort zone boiled down to fear. Fear that I will not do well, fear that I will mess things up, fear that I will disappoint the people around me. But if I operate out of fear all the time, then I will never truly walk into the entirety of what God has intended me to do, which is something that I can only do with faith!
”Err on the side of faith.“ – Pastor Tan Seow How
I was also very impacted by Pavan’s testimony! He was someone who had it all – good results, great future – but one question led him to what he is today, and that was the question of what was his purpose in life?
Many people I know have always asked this question, and I know of so many people who try to find their purpose through many different means. Some work very hard to earn a lot of money, get a good reputation; some find purpose in doing voluntary work, helping the needy etc.
Don’t get me wrong, these are all good things, and we definitely should work towards that. Yet however, a lot of these people somehow still end up feeling hollow and empty after they cash in their latest paycheque, after a whole day of volunteering.
Pavan’s testimony was especially powerful because from the eyes of the world, he had it all. Yet still, he was looking for something more. And when he found that something more in God, somehow everything clicked for him, and now, he’s living a life full of purpose and he’s loving it.
This testimony also led me to think about a Taiwanese celebrity who just died of cancer last week. I remember watching his last interview on YouTube, and one sentence he said struck me the most.
“这个世界上如果哪一天我死了，会不会有人记得我。” （Come the day when I die, will anyone remember me?)
He shared in the interview that since young, he has always been searching for a purpose in life. This question had kept him up all night since then, and he had to rely on medication to get to sleep.
This was also someone who, in the eyes of the world, had it all – at least, more than what most of us would have. He was a celebrity, people knew him and his songs, he was generally popular, he could live quite lavishly. Yet the same question of purpose nagged at him.
I don’t know whether the celebrity found his answer after all.
But what I know is how I can find my purpose.
This is why I go to church. This is why I do the things that I do. Even at the end of the day, when I reach home tired, I know that I am walking into the purpose that has been set out me in my life, and I can sleep soundly, knowing that I am loving my life.